Last updated on April 8th, 2019
We’re 7 months into this whole parenting gig and we’ve learned a lot. Not least of which is that as long as you have tortillas, you can generally always make tacos out of the contents of your fridge. These mole-spiced chickpea and grilled zucchini tacos are just that. Though, I have been day dreaming about them all summer so maybe subconsciously I’ve kept all the ingredients on hand just in case we need tacos.
Seven months into parenting and I’m still learning. Learning what kind of mom I am. What kind of mom I’m going to be. And reconciling that with what kind of mom I want to be or think I should be.
My love for this little human grows exponentially as I watch her discover something new every single day. Now at 7 months old, she sits up on her own, eats zucchini, smiles and jabbers at anyone who will listen (especially the cat – a word I swear I’ve heard her practicing), and has very clear desires and knows exactly how to express them. Things like, “I want to put that cat’s tail in my mouth” and “WHY CAN’T I GRAB THE CAT’S FURR?!”
And, you guys, if there was ever any doubt, she is for sure my kid. A few days ago I heard hysterical baby belly laughs erupting from the bathroom while my mom gave Zoella a bath.
She’d farted in the tub. And cracked herself up.
Twice – both times with as much amusement. I’m thankful I’m home to hear all the fart laughs while she’s itty bitty.
Then at the same time, I still covertly question whether I’m enough. PAUSE. I should preface this by saying: I’m not looking for folks to tell me I’m a good mom; Instinctively, I know that I’m enough. Yet, I haven’t folded laundry or put dishes away in decades, and there are days when I react to Lucas leaving work late by sending pictures of the baby’s melt-down face, then my melt-down face, followed by audio clips of her tears. (Subtlety is not my specialty – I’m fortunate he loves me).
I’m a mom that’s at home with her babe, but I’m splitting my time – using naps and the hours after she falls asleep to keep up with the mound of work I keep adding to my plate. The work that I also love and makes me feel like more than just a boob. Every time my mom or a nanny comes to babysit while I work though, I feel a tinge of guilt. Why did I have a baby when I love my work…to just have someone else care for her during the day? Rationally, I know that’s normal guilt and that moms go back to work every single day and that it’s healthy for me and Zoella – but it’s powerful guilt that makes me question what kind of mom I am. So that’s where I am these days.
Today I’m the kind of mom who reads books. Books like: Dragons Love Tacos. Have you heard of this book? It’s all about how dragons loooOOoove tacos and taco parties, and if you want to make friends with dragons, tacos are key.
So I’m throwing a taco party! These mole-spiced chickpea and grilled zucchini tacos would bring all the dragons to your party, trust me. The grilled zucchini adds moisture and quintessential summer flavors that, combined with mole-spiced chickpeas, makes the tacos hearty and filling. The mole spices were the brainchild of Carla, who listened to me describe the flavors from my taco daydreams and gave them a name. She’s magic because this profile was exactly what I was dream-tasting.
Then I turned the tacos into a flavor bomb of all my favorite toppings: lime greek yogurt crema, quick-pickled radishes, salty toasted pepitas, microgreens, and crumbles of French feta. Summer isn’t over yet. Not even a little bit. C’mon over, Dragons!
Read my new mama reflections from 4 months ago if you’re curious how things have changed.
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